Testimony of Scriptures

I understand a little better why having a testimony of the scriptures is important for me. As I mentioned in my first post, I have problems with some of the doctrines of the scriptures/Church (the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints). These problems don't make me vindictive or hostile (at least not to my knowledge), I just question things a lot, maybe too much...but if you believe that God exists and that He answers our prayers, can you question thing too much? I guess we can't know all things yet so questioning everything is sort of pointless.
Anyways. I realized that these doctrines in the scriptures that are pretty intense for my mind (like agency, omnipotence, eternal and infinite life) don't need to be understood to be accepted. That's what a testimony is for. If I gain a testimony of the Book of Mormon, that builds upon a testimony that it was translated by the power of God through His prophet Joseph Smith, which builds upon the testimony that ancient prophets in the Americas were inspired by God to write these things. So as my testimony builds, I can cut out the middle and say "I believe the Book of Mormon is from God." And if I believe God's modern prophets: "It is translated correctly and a true book with true teachings." So I don't have to understand all the teachings because some of it is simply too intense for me to understand. Instead, I can have that blind faith people talk about and simply take the book on its word.

Why Here?

For some reason I feel better writing my spiritual promptings and feelings on this blog. Hand writing in a journal is too slow for my fast-paced mind (conditioned by this fast-paced life?). I also feel better about the style of writing this blog forces me to take up. In a personal journal, I tend to veer off into simply talking to myself in a way that only I may understand or simply talk about things that I would never want to share with anyone else. In this format, I may take on a better mode of writing. Also, I can proofread and edit.

So for my first post I want to talk a little about General Conference this week. I loved Elder Holland on Sunday (morning?) and also Elder Uchtdorf during the Priesthood session. Hopefully I will get into why I loved them so much in a later post, but during Conference in general (ha, see what I did there?) I realized that I have a good amount of difficulty accepting the doctrine of agency. I just have struggled for a long time trying to understand how and why I make decisions. I have watched myself explicitly make the wrong decision, as well as implicitly make the right one. I have seen other people make decisions based upon similar principles and who have many environmental factors which may not benefit their rational decision-making skills in a given circumstance.
Nevertheless.
I am glad that I realized how much this principle is affecting me because now I have something to study and pray about.
Answers will ensue.